I've never worried about what actually counts for it but I need to know what you know about things like... I don't even know. I guess voyeurism? I mean, if you go out and get off to someone performing, or others out at a club and it's something you're into, does getting off to things like that count?
Fuck, I feel so fucking stupid asking this. I can't keep my promises if I end up in realignment and end up beaten, and I can't be with someone else. So I have to figure out a way to make this work until he comes back.
[When. When he comes back. He can't think of if. ]
It has to count somehow. Like watching others. Jon's been doing it that way for a year now and while he won't graduate, he didn't talk about getting dragged away for training so... somehow it has to work.
Watching others is with partners, right?
We made vows, and while he might not be keeping them - and I don't know if he is or not. He said he hasn't broken that one but he's broken others so I don't know but I know I won't. I don't think I could, Margo.
We talked and I am taking better care of myself. I already fucked that up about not being available to him if he needs me, and I won't break this. There has to be a way.
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And if Seth is reading this, I'm not propositioning you. Gross. I need information.
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And yeah, gross. No offense.
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I've never worried about what actually counts for it but I need to know what you know about things like... I don't even know. I guess voyeurism? I mean, if you go out and get off to someone performing, or others out at a club and it's something you're into, does getting off to things like that count?
Fuck, I feel so fucking stupid asking this. I can't keep my promises if I end up in realignment and end up beaten, and I can't be with someone else. So I have to figure out a way to make this work until he comes back.
[When. When he comes back. He can't think of if. ]
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I know Elijah is coming back, but you need to take care of you.
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Watching others is with partners, right?
We made vows, and while he might not be keeping them - and I don't know if he is or not. He said he hasn't broken that one but he's broken others so I don't know but I know I won't. I don't think I could, Margo.
We talked and I am taking better care of myself. I already fucked that up about not being available to him if he needs me, and I won't break this. There has to be a way.
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I know, I know... Just... Be safe, Kyle.
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Sorry if I'm being a pain. I'm kind of freaking out.